Thursday, March 17, 2005
Heex.bloggin' again. yippeee!!! yes. i am just joking about being uncontactable. oh well. it really depends on my mood. And finally i decided to step out of my precious little house tommorow. so yeps. You know. this entry. i will be kind of like scolding some human being so ya, you know kids should leave right now, and those who cannot stand me flaring up shud leave instantly! so yea here it goes.
firstly. there's a difference between being pessimistic and sadistic. Not many people are sadistic, and for me, one should not label themselves sadistic anyhow, especially when they are PREPPY. i don't have anything against preppy chicks or anything liddat, i am not even against their "preppyism", but i just cannot standing people labeling the preps or some human being labelling themselves as sadistic/depressed people when obviously they are firstly preppy, or secondly not being very sad, or depress, or of course sadistic. Please note that, sadistic and sad do not have the same meaning, not even close. and please, do not act like you're depress when you're not. it disgusts me. Please abstain associating yourself with those words if you don't understand the real meaning. Of course i am not saying that preps can't be sad or anything, but seriously, they can't that sad until they are depressed or worse, sadistic. Don't you find it ironic? it's so disgusting. sadistic people have a morbid fascination for what-most-people-think-that's-disgusting stuffs. and it's not just blood i am talking about 'ere. they are often quite, i remember a word miss chin used, but i couldn't quite spell it.
i am not sadistic, i only have a morbid fascination for blood, death and certain bondage kind of things[non-sexual, mind you!]. maybe a little, but compared to the real definition, i believe i am nothing. but i do you know, sort of, respect sadistic things. so yeps, that's why it angers me so much. yes, i respect[well, sort of.] depressed people very much as well, goths too. and i am not talking scientifically[sp?] so don't tell me what it means in medical history. i am not very interested. i am talking my own language here. so of course you can choose not to give a shit about it. but i believe YOU will give a shit and more than just a shit to what am i talking about so yea.
YES, if you think i am talking about you. i AM. i have nothing against you. but please. just change that almost goddamn skin. it's so DISGUSTING. i can't stand it. i don't blame you. i blame the girl who made the skin. and looking at her name, i can actually, know why is she being sucha "bimbo", lucky her, she still gets to be called a bimbo. Oh well, hell whatever your thoughts go, just change the skin, or at least edit it.
Actually, i shud reconsider about my decision of stepping out of my precious lil' house. well. i am really off right now. i need to blast off before i turn "sadistic".
"Once in a while, wishes do come true."