Monday, October 11, 2004
Came to bloggie again.
Kindda late now, and i gotta study for exam, but well i am feeling a little unwell. so here i am. heex. stoooid. todae was goldie's berfdae. everything was great, we laugh like there's no tommorow or rather like there's no exam tommorow, but sad case there is, and it's the subject i dread the most. Damn it. Hahax. took 6 photos today, with goldie and some with jeremiah. we look kindda funny tho', really treasured those moments that we are together, we dun get to spent as much time as last time anymore, yea, because we have all moved on. and that's sad huh? And wow, guess what, people who hate me, you all should really be happie now, cause i am feeling that i am a byatch. I tried to be nice, i tried, and turns out that i think she still wants fame. but, come to think again, maybe it's not her fault it's mine, but i dunnoe what's wrong with me too, but i know it's more of my fault, ever heard of the song reflection? That's how am i feeling now, except that, i know i won't be love for who i am. I dun like this, but i know there's no other choice and besides i can't break down now. exams are here. if i break down now, it's more like i am tryin to commit suicide, i can' mua parent down now, can't let sim sim down, can't let, this is kindda surprising, howard tan down, can't let zing down now. Damn it. Who wake me up from my dream. I dun like this reality thingy, reality=true feelings=pain. i dread this, i seriously do, when exams are over, dun worry, i will definitely go back to mua fantasy world and try to hide as long as possible, and you people who hate me won't be able to see "me" for a very long time. yea, just kindda depressed now, needa express muaself somehow, someway. well, this seems to be the way. blehx. gotta make a move now, wun like to fail mua maths ya know? tata~
I know, i won't be love for who i am.
"Once in a while, wishes do come true."